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她说她爱他，但是又说他不值得爱。

 

她说她爱他，但总觉得他从来不付出。

 

她说她爱他，但是两个人生活目标与追求都不一样，但她仍然爱他……

 

很多人说他不懂得珍惜，但我觉得，也许是她太过于珍惜，毕竟，是第一次……

 

其实，我觉得她根本不是真的爱他爱到无法自拔，而是爱自己，欣赏自己，觉得自己应该得到怎样怎样的收获，应该得到他的爱。因为他们一开始的时候，就是两个女人追一个男的，她获胜了，而他一直半推半就……

 

要在一起，就是要开心，而不能为了在一起而在一起。本是不同世界的人，没有共同语言的话，其实是很无趣的……

 

其实，蛮好在他第一次外遇的时候就劝她和他分手的……但两边都是好朋友，这黑脸我不当……

 

四年了，她要去德国了，他却还待在故乡，连大学都没毕业……让时间空间决断吧，希望她不要那么固执，走好，该留下的就留下吧……

I was so messed up...I was so messed up...

 

Not only the relationship thing...but also my life, future ..and all..

 

Completely confused...WHAT do I want? WHAT do I need? WHAT am I seeking for?...

 

I haven't learnt to live for my own. All my life journey was just wholely, at least mostly,  planned by family, teachers, relatives, social opinions.. I have been so passive, lost in the jungle of life...

 

BUT now, I must stand up for and on my own. I need a definite conception of life of my own. I need a break out of the ivory tower built by myself..be  social, be independent, be a man.

 

YOU gave me the motive to change the way I was living,  and THAT's why you are so adorable. So, I need you.. I am a lazy guy. I long for simple, stable life. Maybe I am not as adventurous as you are. But SO WHAT! I care about you!

Sweetheart, I never meant to bother you..but what I said and did DID hurt your feeling...I am really sorry..I wish we can make it up..what do you say?